So, I’m just about ready for this shin dig. Tonight I’m cleaning the dust and cobwebs off the chandelier in the dining area. Not an easy job. I need to take off EACH clear plastic rod before I get to the dust and cobwebs. It will probably take me an hour just to finish this one project. But, it needs to be done. Can’t have dust and cobwebs falling into the food! Yuck!!!
Today, I bought a book to journal all the steps I took to get this party to this point. It’s cute and very British looking. I’ll write the kinds of flowers I ordered, the foods we ate, the gifts I received AND who gave them to me (So I can send Thank You notes). I’ll put anything and everything I can to help me prepare for my next ceilidh. If all goes well, I intend to have quite a few of these. Check it out…
Someday, my sweet sisters – I will leave this 1% world. You will need to coordinate all of these things to say “good bye” to me. I know you probably don’t want to talk about this. But, it is necessary. No one lives forever. Oldest brother has been instructed to get me “the good flowers .” What do I mean by that? Look in this journal. I want you all to sit around a fire and tell stories that remind you how much I love you. Perhaps you’ll even share this website with your brothers. Oldest brother knows about it and reads it sometimes. Younger brother may be surprised to know how delighted I was with the birth of his first child. Remember, I gave a baby shower party at my church in her honor. The rabbi gave her a special blessing too. Its all here, on www.sketchyscribe.com right?!
Perhaps reading the website daily will help you get through the most difficult months that follow. Losing someone you love (and you KNOW that they loved you so dearly) can be very hard. The silence can be deafening. But, perhaps you’ll dream of me.
The person I loved and lost has come to me SEVERAL times in dreams. The dreams are comforting because I can see him, hug him and I know he is OK. The dreams did not come right away. He explained to me that he needed time to adjust so he couldn’t visit me until about 6 months (my time) had pasted.
This is all really deep, isn’t it. I guess I’m not afraid of dying. I’ve gotten to spends lots of time with the people I love. I have my priorities straight. Someday, if you need to know what I believe about death, watch this movie: What Dreams May Come. Oddly enough, Robin Williams is in it. Its kinda weird, but oh so good. Watch it to the end. I promise, its so worth it!
https://youtu.be/AKp2LsCOswc