My report cards are almost finished.  Cum cards are finished.  End of the year parties have started.  Yes, I think the end of the school year is upon us.

My students elected to have a donut party as their last day of school festival.  That will be different and fun!

I’m sorry I could not get the parents to talk to me.  It really wasn’t much of a surprise though.  These days, the only folks in your family that will talk to me are your oldest brother and your aunt.

I did send a letter to the parents and I did follow that letter up with a phone call to dad. Perhaps you won’t feel that is enough. Perhaps someday you’ll criticize me for “not doing enough.”  Actually, the parents would probably disagree with you on this.

And to be completely honest, this whole ordeal has taken a huge toll on my health. I struggle to sleep at night as I find myself up worrying about what to do to help you both.  It is very hard to be treated like you are the family monster (refusing to acknowledge a person’s attempts at reconciliation, tearing a person’s head off when they try talking to you, ignoring the death of someone).

All I ever wanted to do was extend my home and my love to two sweet girls that I love very much.

For my own sanity, I need to take a step back.  I hope you understand.

This summer, I intend to focus on getting my emotional and physical health back on track. I haven’t been to the gym much and I haven’t been eating very well. Combined with not sleeping and a constant cough, I’m always so tired. I need to go back to the therapist I started to see and get back on the depression and anxiety medication he put me on. Yes, it was that serious.

But I will keep writing.  I will never stop writing.  I hope you will both keep reading. I refuse to let my love for you both go.  But my health has to become a priority.  I feel that the family has some very toxic elements at work.  I intend to stay away from that and gain some wellness.  Criticize me if you must, but – that’s how I feel. You are, of course welcome to contact me at anytime, if you so choose.